Not Me, Me

                                                                 Depiction


I don’t know where to begin but I do know when to end…wht is dat u really wanna read about??? Wht is dat I really wanna write bout?? Still working on dat…
Never may know who or what does eventually come outta of such an expedition. Is it for necessary to always enhance ur vocabulary while u convey ur thoughts in words or simply to distinguish oneself from an avg ‘John Doe’..Who knows..???

I have a different take on the same though; of more or less leaving it for the reader to decide and not having a controlled agenda every time one sits to describe or illustrate (right click on describe for synonymous) his or her vision or so called hazed dusty blurry voices in de head converted to hard hearted words of conviction. So be it…

So now since the ice is hard sledged broken …. Its time we set aside all others and walk along to a path or reality, a path simply so less confusing to a knowledge of unlimited bliss and unconditional satisfaction… the very simple and easily misunderstood happiness…

Now I aint here to give lessons on how to achieve dat, m simply to let de smart ass decide for urself…U…but for sure I am gonna show ur guideness on how to keep u in safe hands for u to slip when ever u wanna without the fear of gripping back…

Okay to begin with…please I would like u to simply distinguish urself with aspects of ur controlled and uncontrolled self… and make sure to peruse a complete controlled environment just for this story or for a while… to do so u need not go to the extend to taking losing control…in other words having it and den loosing it… just wouldn’t work…

All u have to do first is to accomplish ur inner self to be communicated with your outer… HOW??? Shall find out….

 


                                                            Emotions

To most of you’ll it’s a simple but complicated issue concerning, dat not only gets u agitated but also leaves u wanderable to many, including self.. to simplify this further, we have to jump to a point of alienating just to justify or simply to judge ourself..HOW????

Okay what exactly are you composed of?? Sufferings, unjust, unattended, inconsiderate, unloved, undesired, bull shit and some more bull shit… now no offence but whtever puts u off is simply a time for an emotion exhibition ….where we lay for sale our best and unbest of emotions for all the walk inns we have followed…

Emotions are personal and compared to a sleeping snakes…now u can very well have been slapped by someone close or unclose which would generate enuff energy to light up this town for 2 generations, but do u wanna get der????? Knowing which snake needs to be risen and knowing which snake for urself is de most active in any and every subjective emotional episode of yours… u maybe best know for calm patient, angered agitated, fussing frowned, to a unexpressive emotional swallow head… but lets be real!!! der is no ways u aint a compacted with a set of all fuking emotions like all of us… so to clarify and to get to the point, if u have been bombarded with emotions, which is usually de case for arising DE deadly snakes…emotions augments’ emotions…. U would know which emotions u have been thrown upon and which to identify dat is might be an essential in each and every relationships..be it any!!!!!!!ANY!!!!!!!!!!!!…

So now since Hiroshima begins it descend towards the soon hell burning down… u need to know wht emotions dat have been featured…now understand ur snakes are pretty active specially some of the specific onez, which have been known to bitten the soul of the devil too…. Control them and make sure u only unleash the same snake not to fight but could also be to assist those snakes, a journey of two through the rough terrain… so an emotional situation handled better if u know wht seems to be de problem and not creating some unknown more ones too… fear with fear, hate with hate, concerned with concerned, sadness with sadness, but if u try to mix them up den all… u shall see a snake farm where no one would wanna step.. so if u confuse sadness with irritation or even sometimes humor with annoyance, u simply have raised a war zone for oneself….

Human and women specially get away with this claiming it to be mood swings…of course the million dollar question arises of how to identify another souls emotional instability…more important is to stabiles oneself…YOURS!!!!



 


                                                            Chaos

Yes I am aware of such factors arising all the time in emotions!! I mean I can see it on ur face already now if u have read so far!! But believe u me, its not dat simple for me either!! For once mastered it can make me look like a fool all over again!! But its worth de try and more importantly knowing it.,..

Actions are a mere simple results of any deviations of emotions or even controlled one. To begin with I would say focus but I would be lying to you if I would confuse focus with an emotion on the whole and knowing actually it not!!!.. so don’t just be urself!!! But wht makes urself you is de key question or should I say de key answer!! Yes as de topic justifies it can and should be confusing, otherwise I would not have written three pages on it just for u to simply read it!! I would have closed the discussion even before it started.. but simple aint any simple anymore..

So Chaos?? Huh? Dats sounds fake… well my boss always said once dat he read in some book written from the writer to the writer’s son.. if u not brave, den fake it and thou shall be!!! I guess now I know where my bosses fake intellectuality came from!! Lol!!!so why lie?? Cause its still u and only u would know…. Emotional confusion can be confused with being played with onez emotions too… Yes!!! ur own!!!  Hiding it can eat u up like an corrosive rock under the sea.. Hurts less to the swimmers above!! But faking it!! Ahhh now u know where we getting at!! Emotional strength is not only attractive but also admired amongst all!!! Ofcourse it’s a diff story all together for loved ones which I would cover sooner or later or never!! But now de most important of all is not confusing faking by controlling!! Dey are visibly miles apart and would always be u ending up not resulting in u…. so why fake it??? Why control it??? Why show it?? Why regret it?? Why???? Just fucking why????

Oh come on who would u be fooling faking it??? Huh??? U would do more harm dan good…. Like the second bad apple in the basket knowing not ur fault but here to start the whole fucking clut of now known to be compared by that first apple always and never move on!!! Why?? To understand!!! And know ur sides if u have any left or more to explore…. Good in a way but dangerously damaging close to a good or a very very bad scary thought!!! Can we bring the focus back on wht we are and wht we are not to closed down to I don’t care at dat point of contact of me not being me no more…. Dat for sure is still me rite??? I still am in flesh and blood taking no more no  for any answers!!!!

Don’t worry once we would have cover this chapter it would begin to take shape…. Like when dey make sculptures out of an hard ice…dey for sure consider the fact that after a slight melt in the ice it would shine none less dan a diamond in its original form….. understand do not consider for consideration is a mere perception if it is one for himself!!!


                                                            Dodging

Yeah!!! Just like de one in red screaming down an European road by the beach…. Dodge Viper!! Sweet aint it!!