Saturday, August 13, 2011

If roses grew far away as on to de moon

If roses grew far away as on to de moon...would seems to be a broken
heart with her blood drained to a pool...lesser would de moon have
known her lost soul, make sure to hold on to some one warm and close
as this would be de times of de bitterest or bitter cold...

as she would cease on her galloping of a cosmic revolution....to find
her a spot far far away from de rays sunning upon her illusion....also
would ensure to unbalance her stand deceiving those whov aced der
ballet to a spinning dance...just to shy her broken heart on and for
all...never shall she rotate on her axis even if she falls...to
understand de essence or is it just to have her defy her own
innocence, why would she not show all, her wounds to inspire many
broken hearts.......all this just to keep her very own hope alive till
de next dawn...for all should wait even if he\she has gone....


Standing on de open island

Standing on de open island with far far away ashore or a bay, minding
everything to disrupt its peace....intercepting its vision by letting
it not leave, be it me or thee, wishing too feel free....nor here,
nither der....two fishes deep within de blue sea.....

Maybe not now, maybe not never....maybe a bit sooner, maybe forever....

beneath an electrified pouring cloud....watching every wave conquer
its blaze...continuously flashing of sparks all over de above
space....like if still on land, romancing u full nite till
day.....rite below rite under, not in a fish tank....in de oceanic
shall we both hibernate.....swims our fins chasing each other de
entire way....ending our search on dat same shore....offspringing
inside de bay....

dis song was based on de msg u had sent me bout u being a fish...

tonight's loss



No i don wanna loose u tonite..
I jus wanna be by ur side....
I never wanna see u n me fight....
Jus want u to be ma guiding light....

now forever shall u make me cry....
Why did i have to find u lie....
Just this on last time....
Donno wanna look through u...but in ur eyeeeeesssssss
ur eyessss
ur eeeeyyyyyyeeeessss
just wanna look in ur eyes....

No i don wanna loose u tonite..
I jus wanna be by ur side....
I never wanna see u n me fight....
Jus want u to be ma guiding light....

i'ed pray for u all day night....
Held u in ma arms, firm n tight....
Talking it n not singing it now:
dats not wht u want....
U dint wanna hold on......
U never did wanna be ma girl...
U jus wanted to see me hurt...

No i don wanna loose u tonite..
I jus wanna be by ur side....
I never wanna see u n me fight....
Jus want u to be ma guiding light....

Questions and Jokes


 Q:Would it be rude to include a condom if u gifting a dildo to a casual women friend


Q: If dey say its Lord Shiva who accidentally discovered de first form of hashish and if I do consume the same, does dat by default make me one of his devotee's????

J: Wanna hear a joke??? If u at a bar, what is dat u should not ask for when u order a steak???? "Just make sure it not Tender" lol

J: 1) Ask me one of those Knock Knock questions too....  2) Knock Knock... 1) I fucking slammed ur face on dat door 5 mins ago and u still knocking ur way back????

Q: Can a loaded gun pass as a sex toy of course keeping protection in mind... 'Safety' safely!!!

Suing her majesty

 Can I actually personally file a law suit, suing the Queen of England for not returning our Indian Kohinoor diamond to its right full aire???? Or shall it instead be the insurance company which is currently making more money where instead to accept our claim and pay up for de lost when we did loose it!!!! Although I do not care about the outcome as it shall be an embarrassment for dem in its self.... Shall just leave de broadcasting to the Americans as dey would know to do so well!!! LOL

Dat Bitch Maggie


 I am simply gonna cut to the point and not waste both our times. I want to launch a new product thought specially for you company. Now if you still feel this is all bullocks and find any need to ignore this mail. Do so with your own wish, but just make sure to consult someone else before you do so!! I owe a restaurant and have been selling a special form of ur Maggie style which I would disclose after a response. What I would like to bring forward is that this would not only profit your organization, but also would make u be able to lauch a new product at a low level cost. Now im sure u must have been getting millions of such emails and would not have much to bother about. But all I can say is that this one is for real and pretty old traditional too. Would be able to touch a whole new market level for your market which u are currently lacking. Okay I shall explain that one for free. Till now ur meager market or consumers come from the male segment and lacks the female crowd. Now with this product not only would u capture that but you could very well capture with almost every family (Yes de "mother"). This is the only product u could connect to old Indian traditional family since ur organization is also really old and goes days back. Plus this product would hit like a wave amongst a young avg bachelors... This is de link I have been able to crack but a simple inclusion in your product can be a very well outsourced product with show casing healthy and light food. Hope to hear from you soon and hope to make money for both of us... At a bit of a compensation i.e. And If noticed direct to the point and no bullshit. Would appreciate a similar response if any.

hello again.
I am not sure bout the disinterest shown to my mail.
which is why shall try a much more formal but still a direct approach.
here it goes..
the product to the reference in the below mail is just an addition tour product with no variance at all except a slight inclusion of asubstance..
now I do want to maintain the privacy of my offer which why I cannot disclose..
but do understand as this would have a huge market capture entirenationwide exposure.
I have not only sorted out a marketing strategy for our businessventure, but have also figured out a futuristic, selfgoverned,intellect artistic manner to bring it forward to ur consumers.
facts now.. I am offering a high generating potential of imagemodification for ur company for a small price..
just for reality I don't see any reason for u to turn this offer downas it ain't gonna cost u anything for hearing my high revenuegenerating business proposition..
so would appreciate just one simply help.. not to ignore this mail andforward it to person who does understand the integrity and thegravity of what am I proposing.. honestly u would be the only personin the entire nestle organisation for whom I would have to try thehardest to prove my point.. after u my friend other would be able tobelieve in what they see.. only u would have to believe in what imtrying to bring forward..
just ask the right person for a tea break and give me a call.. nothingmore than 5 mins is what I would need.. and that would change andenhance ur organisation's potential and profitability by Atleast 20%which is significantly high and above all sales target in any othercommodity..
kindly consider my offer as I would not have something to looseincluding the time and energy on this email, an amazingly cheap andproductive method of increasing profit, jobs, unbelievable sales,revenue, and above all a motherly market to capture the only untamedterritory..
again plz do look into it as I have been patient in composing thismail so I must be carrying some sense in the above words..
plz just look into it that's the last thing u would need to do for me..
thanks and regards..hoping for a positive n prompt reply
Balmeet Singhdirector sales n marketing maggie(only if u'll give me that chance Ideserve).. shall c


Dear Balmeet
Thank you for contacting us.
Whilst we value your interest in our Company, we prefer not to accept unsolicited submissions related to our advertising, products, packaging or promotions. Our employees and contractors have many ideas of their own for the improvement and development of products, promotions and advertising programs, some of which may be similar to yours. You will, I am sure, realise that an idea which may be new to you may be already known to us or previously available to the public. Because of the complexities involved in developing successful products and promotions, we rely on the expertise of our in-house personnel and contractors in the appropriate fields for new product and promotion development.
Again, thank you for your interest in our company, and for taking the time to contact us.
Regards
Venita GabrielRegional Intellectual Property AdviserSouth Asia Region, Pakistan & AfghanistanNestlé India Limited


Okay here it goes.. By far this is the best articulated diplomaticshunning away turn me down pasted copy of an ancient mail I've comeacross.. Unless it's a state of de art if it's by u!! PERFECT
Now which I suppose would be de appt time to have dat PITCH!!
Alright here it is.. Now me being from de very own hyped up slum nevermillionaire dogs of city mumbai.. Which surely doesn't change anyfacts besides de god for sake unbreakable system I live in..Just too many competition... and Gotta hunt down to de right source..i.e. YOU.!
Now this recipe which by de way my mom, born in delhi, married to madad, born in karachi...To pass it on to for 30 odd years, have fed her, up brought southporches of places in mumbai to a level of non existence son!.. (in deform of class n race.. Middle and upper.. Money.!!! Money.!!! get it?)
to now who de very little she knows, his own son market it with beingde utter most religiously cooked our very own.. all included in allover from north punjab to west bengal, to southern middle west indianmeals.. De very basic TARKKA..
Now u tell me if u still reading.. If dis, which very well being atrue story actually of my mom, not only would revolutionalise butwould connect with de core conduct of indian pakistan and yes somehow chinese too for who fried noodles as common staple diet .. But whynot maggie TARKKA?? being indian diet
RECIPETake maggieBoil itHeat a bit oil (which should be outsourced sashay of healthy oil)Throw de maggie masala into de oil..5 secAnd stir fry de boiled maggieNow add cheese for fattyAdd eggs for gujju's (only egg eaters)Or just add chilly sauce like I do
And u now have de not 2 but motherly maggie masala.. M3 (mother maggie masala)
Indians would be cooking it all over for a try Atleast!!
Plus can show, going ages back recipe (google TARKKA to see all indianfood from fish fry to chicken to dal or "pulses" to de purest ofreligious icons believed gods, don't even eat onions and potatos,cause it might be non veg due to de germs since grown underground) toan ages back company called maggie with india..Or many more sequel ads im already ready with.. 6 to begin de hit tode market at de start..
Now if u still reading all I wanna say is i ain't gonna sit aroundwith this revenue generating pioneerly emotionally touching taste budsstimulating idea go to vain.. I guess I've played those experts roleexpertly.. Now all it needs some few seconds thoughts.. Millisecondsbrain speed rather..and find some administrator to implement this atonce.. And get u dat promotion to have sky highed de revenue with afigure u choose to reflect on ur monthly who knows weekly tooreviews..All I ask in return is confidentiality and de heir to what I woulddeserve enuff to ethically treat each others respectful path tosuccess of cooperated satisfaction...
And to very less of ur notice I might just wanna be asked to replaceur best and fav expert!! To become ur very own personal fav EXPERT!I have de mission all u gotta lead n manage our vision!!
Choice is ur's.!
oh and by de way ur quotes.. "complexities involved in developing asuccessful product" is now, my quote: "de simplest of successfullydeveloped product"
just looking in de future dats all..
thanks and regards,balmeet do mail me a bit more convincing harder shunning revert!!

hi Venita,
so understanding none of a response post the proposition, I take inconsideration that its a mere time waste at yours and my end..without any contemplation on the idea.. as ur company policy despiseany foreign talent without any consideration?
wish I had someone whom could connect with my thought process, withsome intellectual inputs of a positive or negative, besides justshunning me away due to company policies..
Thanks and regards anyways,Balmeet



Dear Balmeet
Thank you for contacting us again on the subject.
We have a very clear policy that we prefer not to accept unsolicited submissions related to our advertising, products, packaging or promotions.
Thank you for your understanding
Regards
Venita GabrielRegional Intellectual Property AdviserSouth Asia Region, Pakistan & AfghanistanNestlé India LimitedTel.: 0091 - 124 - 238 9300 / 238 9400Fax: 0091 - 124 - 238 9381 / 238 9399

Trading in des tough times---Dated May 31st

Time to buy? Time to sell? De answer lies in wht part of de marker player ur playing with? To explain dis fundimentaly, it means if ur looking as an investor, well it simply means to keep...as an investor u need to understand how dis global market is slowing down and wht dey need to focus is, to hold on to those shares, while also keeping a look out for further such companies...for example if u are an investor for sony, u need to understand the time frame of recovery from japan crisis....but not to react like a consumer which u would be seeing in dis current market...ofcourse if i play de role of a genric consumer or a short time civilian investor, i shall sell for it to buy something else....for example thinking of buying apple stocks now since its is on a low and i might not get it any cheaper dan dis now......so as an investor i would keep, but as a civilian i would sell to buy those cheap high end stocks....commodities may get expensive but stocks aint ever cheaper....
I need to also focus in re visiting ma companies profits cost ratio....i would like to begin taking steps now, and also begin predicting to be geared up for de worse....just to ensure not to hit rock bottom all of sudden....i understand dis is not wht stocks holder would like to hear...but im sure dis is exactly now wht a stock holder would need to know.....dis is an global recovery and recoveries can go wrong......and no im not excluding india....where if i was a part in playing a huge role for reliance for instance...i would be worried with all de termoil the company and der directors r going through and how der decissions would affect der following sister companies as well....so its time for me to revisit my portfolio and its time for other to have decide the future of des companies...i would just be a step ahead where to know, wht is der future...so investor; keep shares....low player; sell to buy and profit on some of de cheap stocks now....and as a long term investor; revisit and time to change dat portfolio and sell to minimize losses now.....de only good news i see dat many new investor shall and are getting attracked with des on going cheap stocks...so yes der is scope but only if dey are bold enuff and enuff agile.....

My Fire in the forest


Start de fire, heat it all up...kill de desire...
Engulf all de tree by der leaves..
Turn de flowers coal colored plz...
care no more, toast dem all..
Spare no land across de dense forest..
burn for an extinction, of all others...
tigers giraffe deer even de rabbits....
Anyone runs free, fuckin trap it..
Curse it to hell like a soulless desert....
Guarded gates, as a hawk
catastrophic be it pronounced its fate...
No love for god nor a satin to wait...
Centuries to come never shall de sun let it set
moon across de fall reflecting it's regrets,
and still to balance further it suffers when life sees her reform..
Sudden like in de sun a nuclear atomic collision swears upon....
A meteorite radiated crater formed..
For here, shall be a underhide..
not a soul nor generations would be born...
another zillion years, not even a zullu tribe...
Shall remind u off dat corner at hell, dan its deepest darkest side...
And dats de fire in 'sense', identified..

De power of ur knowledge, unknown to u!!


Earlier were de times as knowledge was derived and valued, thus were known as gods or lords... den were passed on to be missed used, calling demselves as prophets or sons of god....later was read upon and abused, by dictators, ministers or even emperors who ruled...now jus googled for no use, sitting on some servers following through 'net' routes...sooner shall it be a command, only to enhance an artificial intelligence IQ to be bettering der own tools.....
Knowledge uploaded complete...so our brains got nothing to loose.....

Saturday, October 9, 2010

I do not Judge!! No Seriously I do not!!

Those who say dey don't judge ppl, simply say dat to avoid being judged!!! Demselves!!
Dey would solely be 'born liars'....let me introduce such ppl to de NOW WORLD!! OUR WORLD,,,,where everyone and I mean everyone!, judges everyone!! Period!!
So next time u wanna get outta a situation where someone ask u, wht do u think!!! Don't gimmie dat excuse of, "Sorry, But I don't judge PPL!!!"

Yeah i am RUDE!! But i aint me!!

 If ppl cant tell de diff in being politically correct and being rude,,,,,den I rather let dem!! Cause being politically correct is one thing, and being "just urself" another!!! Thank fucking god; I aint atleast dat rude by not being me, but someone else!!!

De Invasion

I mean wht really happened here, did we just loose it??? De one and only grand knowledge of our land of Kama Sutra or seems like we have been invaded off it!!! Oh yes! We have been fucked once before by de Welch, but surely de Brit's meant only business and nothing more... I mean I haven't seen a single tit on our TV since Gandhi times...leaving aside our Kama alone... I mean if it's art, paint a picture...if its knowledge, have dat leisure to share it!!! But for sure if its GODz lose for only us humans to experience the divine pleasures of being human itself, making our gods shy in envy for not experiencing our orgasms..... den why let this knowledge vain down the Ganga drains ?????? bring it out, before the Indians forget completely how to fuck.... Indians just cant fuck any more!!! All dey know is how to reproduce and I feel sorry for us!!!!!!

SuperPower. my ass

I am a mere mathematician from core and im sorry to say if none of u’ll can actually calculate the variance from the very integrity on the soul question and but just be complacent of being debative about the topic with a selective few ignorant panel…. No offence Raghav!!! But let me be a bit more shining lighten on my so called harsh obligations….

Super Power?? Is dat a question to ask? I mean I know for sure to derive to 4, I would simply need to add or multiply 2 with 2 respectively and for sure we are just held bend on the fact dat wht derisive de previous 2??? I don’t need this panel or Raghav to tell me if we are a super power??? We know we are not!!! So der I have finished his book in a simple answer of “No” and why not??? cause someone some where is not doing his job!! Simple!!! I know for fact that china, Korea or any now well synced well economized country bothers about its Results!!! Super Power being a powerful word by itself!!! What results in a superpower? Economy, Infrastructure, GDP, Leadership, politic stability, government, education, health assurance??? NO!!! Sorry!!! But simply de urge to be a superpower!! De “4” and not what composite or just mere derivatives of “4”!!! If we wanted to be there we would have!! Although it is a good aspect of questioning our system!! If u would have to pass that mic around in the audience all would have resulted in a same answer of No We just cant!!! I mean for example… we have our legislative discussing their own salary hike which is not an embarrassment to themselves but to oneself too!! And not to mention the days of discussion and adjournment of the legislation and the paper matter wasted on TOI!!! China needs results and doesn’t care what gets “4” addition, multiplication or even subtraction!! Results!!! So if we are asking this question. SuperPower? Den who is and what is he or she doing about it? I cant sit here and write, debate, publish, market (With the help of CNBC ofcourse) whole day and still would never reach to an end of this discussion!! Questioning our governing body would just do more damages to our society dan any good!! To give u a simple example, Malaysia being an Islamic country, is far more advanced dan us in all matters, I mean Im not even beginning to differentiate our negatives of like infrastructure and etc. im simply talking about a fact of as simple as of a cleanliness in a governmental hospital, where here our fellow doctors have to take up the task leaving all the ills to die, which dey would somehow due to unhygienic diseases…    I mean is it so hard to see and miss out on dirt at a FUCKING hospital atleast?? Should I even begin education or infrastructure? I mean where England rate health and safety and no1 priority which on de whole is a pain in der ass too, we don’t even get close to prioritizing it close to a dumpster or even our own beaches for that matter!!! Who should I Blame? Is de question all are asking??? Blame me!! Why de fuck did I step foot on the beach in the fist place!! Rite? And Mr. Raghav wants CNBC to setup a high profile panel to simply promote his book dat we are ten fucking close years to China!!! Malaysia is not even counted close to any of the third world county yet and still I know dey are way ahead of us!!! Now comes de million dollar question we all ask??? So wht can I do??? Absolutely nothing till the time you are asking dat question and everything if u are even thinking about answering it!!!

Wanna debate?? Den please make it worth ma while and not simply to share de publishing profit for someone who is comparing us to someone else, blindfolded!!

And Raghav my advice to u is… ur job is done and tata thank you but de answer to ur question on ur book cover is No and not even close, Thank you very much!!!! They say, never judge a book by its cover, I would say judge the writer instead! Its all about mentality and not barriers!!!

Who.... u de smart ass!!!

Me; Yeah!!! Yeah!! Two fucking faced double standard hypocrite, NOfuckingONE trying to be EVERYfuckingONE!!!...

Devil In me; Now wht de fuck can I have so much so important to say bout maself Noone really cares bout ur whereabouts, huh??


Me; Ahh!! Den why not leave!! Peace keep!! And leave de speaking for me to accomplish, which really seems impossible with u around!!


Devil In me; for once I do certainly wish to ur commands, No!! But den whose gonna let des blissful ppl know dat, dat what a waste of "MA" time is to being nothing more important den being here!!!

Me; Why??? U fucking have something important to do, leaves 'me' at last; to say


Devil In me; why de fuck do u talk like u know it all, HHHHUUUUHHH!!!!!!! Wht u think dat makes u smart??

Me; Maybe not dat!! But certainly wht does make me smart is others being dumb and I for sure to think u oneofdem



Devil In me; Oh der U go again

Me; WE!!!

Devil In me; And den again!!! Hahahaha

Me; I told ya, for once we are here, and u for shit sake aint gonna let me steel de show rite???

Devil In me; And I thought I was de uninvited guest

Me; Oh PLEASE!!! BE MY GUEST!!! MAKE SURE TO BE A 'CHIEF' TO OUR GUEST!!! IF NOT INVITED

Devil In me; Yeah and U for sure a 'comedian show case'!!!

Me; Okay now where de intellegience in calling one ownself an OWN FOOL???


Devil In me; it is u, u fool, and please do begin for grammaticallycated own bloody fucked up fabricated linguistics


Me;huh???


Devil In me; u heard me

Me; wht do u mean

Devil In me; okay honestly, u suck at ur spellings big time,

Me; Our spellings!!!

Devil In me; Whteva!!! den comes ur self proclaimed grammatically fucktated ( would have added "tit"tated but neverthefuckingless humiliated unfucking Latinic, to de shiterature birth of English) idiom... do get dat in ur dicked head!!


Me; hahahahaha

Devil In me; wht is so funny funny guy???

Me; Who gave u de smart idea dat I WAS DE SMART ONE??? Huh

Devil In me; Wht do u mean


Me; ???????

Devil In me; So U mean " I am de smart one?????"


Me; Nah!! Just wanted to know de guy who told u so!! Must have been one hellofa smart guy to do so!!!

Finger fucks

 I have observed quit few many times finger fucking being an expression of a mean fuck.... She would nevertheless never deny indulging in it....while my submerged penis into her vagina....enuff for her to be wet as I squeeze on of my finger too.... Oh yeah gives me the arousal too so should be wonders for her.... Although I would advise u not to use this ona virgin.... Would be utterly disaster's and could ruin ur sex day totally... de gal should be in a relaxed position to begin with... I personally like it while she is lying back faced on me... with her hands and legs in an attention position facing the ceiling and finger now ready to fuck while my penis takes a pitstop.... Oh and although that finger can take a rest for not leaving all the action and chancing roles for some to my penis as well... I love finger fucking her!!!!
No fabrication, lubrication only just pure penetration!!!!

Fork fucking to achieve an couple orgasms

No im not talking about how to make her cum...im sure u know how to do so at ur very best...im talking about u to experience one .... I do have a theory bout it saying how to achieve once twice thrice not possible...afterall we are men and not women....we do know our limits and always have one..... so how does one achieve this mythical belief of men not having, well I cant say multiple but maybe a couple orgasms.....by accident it came to my knowledge dat during climaxing in her, makes sure not to jerk at dat moment and just let u flow...even after u cum u shall be able to achieve another climax within another two or four mins..... ur dick would continue to have remained hard enuff to entire her vagina which for me is a much more goodenuff orgasm dan once...of course I wouldn't stand a chance for competing hers orgasms after one to many more to cum.... There is much more improvising needed and im still working on dat... I understand dat males cant tell de diff of mind over body which is stupid of us as blood can gush either to our penis or our head at a given time...but I think we need to plunge further and understand the similarity as difference are much too clear and much more talked bout just too overrated.... We do have one creator for starters... if we separate dem (mind and body) for a sec to tell the diff of feelings, I think we can know distract ourself by fork fucking to achieve that continues engagement of sex and some
more additional sex.... No more foreplay or afterplays... one whole episode of fork fucking seals de deal!!!...remember divide the mind from body and also remember the earlier shared experience is an excellent example in its offbeat....... From loosing de urge to loosing count

Ash It

Stuck like the burning ash, waiting to be tapped but still hanging on for the cigarette to be jerked and to land on de floor. Like few secs before edging or should it be urging to commit suicide. Dying lying falling from de cliff onto the carpet which is cleaned in a blink by an abusive cancerian smoke head. Breezed away with its own smoke to be noticed by the dust present in its place...or I present in the way of dust. Not sure for how long would I.....or should I feel discomfort, for not long has it been till I become dust myself.... Betrayed or to betray is not what needs to be blamed but people shall take its blame.


Don't remember the day but remember the time while I switched on my office computer to notice her email lie, why is I ask to curse maself well again and again. Could I be different? Or should I? but I did be....and no sooner was I de dust myself.... And what I learned to teach maself not to hurt me but how to hurt others...SAME GOD DAMN SHIT AGAIN!!! Only diff being it is I who is not the smoke shunning away the ash into dust for it to hide above the carpet with the others underneath it....

Shall I call it revenge.....cant cause I don't have its cause but just a result in front of me.... A mind set to be dishonest or disfigured with not much of a distance between both... would want to do good but with a thought haunting me for life doing nothing but ashing me day by day....


How can I bring this forward how can I put an end how can I ask for a quit smoker not pulling me under the edge, pleading me to pledge, staring for horror to smoke another cigarette..... I CANT CHANGE.... Can it be this lights the cause or is it that stubs be bud....i don't know..... how can I was young wonderable dumb stupid but how different do I feel now???? Just aged to over time loosing enuff time over thoughts....

Not sure wht I hide from or wht I hide? Its been for long since I have cried..... same day being the last before I have shed another tear in my life ever again.... Now for sure I should have but still cant feel my eyes to have the sympathy which others also dint have....minding me to control my emotions for de inner me..... wht should I do where should I go where should I be where should I look where should I where should I where should I??????

Was it her yes has always been to go and come like rains of seasons like light of night like bats of darkness like thoughts of a song like a tear of..............me........

Would she stay no she wont as I never did try never did want never did know never did choose never did nothing to keep her alive for me to know her never did I ASK!!!!
Why should I do such a thing why should I not ask??? Why should I let her choose if I had no choice of my own why should I not???????





                                                GUESS IT DAT TIME


Yeah the time has come de time when no one or no god existence is needed or wanted.... When fears overwhelm de thoughts of regret over obligations de time when each sec counts its needle for a tick...de time which was never meant to tick never invited never thought and never forgot......nor can I control nor can it change, nor it can be deleted of my mind to find a new and better whtever...... fucking all dat for nothing is de only thought arising on and off in my mind to see all for what and nothing is dat only thing prevails...god bless everyone except de one soul which matters to me...MINE...lol oh dint know god anything to do with that...can I cry no I cant can I die did try it once....death over this??? No worth dying nor worth living with.... How do I pass this AGAIN... a journey so familiar so clear now dat my future seems like ma past but just seems like present too far...

End de fucking story


Cause I don't want to I feel fucking safe in de loss of her dan loosing someone else would want her to know dat too...but she still wouldn't care....why do I....maybe I don't too cause care for someone de one needs to be der....

Not Me, Me

                                                                 Depiction


I don’t know where to begin but I do know when to end…wht is dat u really wanna read about??? Wht is dat I really wanna write bout?? Still working on dat…
Never may know who or what does eventually come outta of such an expedition. Is it for necessary to always enhance ur vocabulary while u convey ur thoughts in words or simply to distinguish oneself from an avg ‘John Doe’..Who knows..???

I have a different take on the same though; of more or less leaving it for the reader to decide and not having a controlled agenda every time one sits to describe or illustrate (right click on describe for synonymous) his or her vision or so called hazed dusty blurry voices in de head converted to hard hearted words of conviction. So be it…

So now since the ice is hard sledged broken …. Its time we set aside all others and walk along to a path or reality, a path simply so less confusing to a knowledge of unlimited bliss and unconditional satisfaction… the very simple and easily misunderstood happiness…

Now I aint here to give lessons on how to achieve dat, m simply to let de smart ass decide for urself…U…but for sure I am gonna show ur guideness on how to keep u in safe hands for u to slip when ever u wanna without the fear of gripping back…

Okay to begin with…please I would like u to simply distinguish urself with aspects of ur controlled and uncontrolled self… and make sure to peruse a complete controlled environment just for this story or for a while… to do so u need not go to the extend to taking losing control…in other words having it and den loosing it… just wouldn’t work…

All u have to do first is to accomplish ur inner self to be communicated with your outer… HOW??? Shall find out….

 


                                                            Emotions

To most of you’ll it’s a simple but complicated issue concerning, dat not only gets u agitated but also leaves u wanderable to many, including self.. to simplify this further, we have to jump to a point of alienating just to justify or simply to judge ourself..HOW????

Okay what exactly are you composed of?? Sufferings, unjust, unattended, inconsiderate, unloved, undesired, bull shit and some more bull shit… now no offence but whtever puts u off is simply a time for an emotion exhibition ….where we lay for sale our best and unbest of emotions for all the walk inns we have followed…

Emotions are personal and compared to a sleeping snakes…now u can very well have been slapped by someone close or unclose which would generate enuff energy to light up this town for 2 generations, but do u wanna get der????? Knowing which snake needs to be risen and knowing which snake for urself is de most active in any and every subjective emotional episode of yours… u maybe best know for calm patient, angered agitated, fussing frowned, to a unexpressive emotional swallow head… but lets be real!!! der is no ways u aint a compacted with a set of all fuking emotions like all of us… so to clarify and to get to the point, if u have been bombarded with emotions, which is usually de case for arising DE deadly snakes…emotions augments’ emotions…. U would know which emotions u have been thrown upon and which to identify dat is might be an essential in each and every relationships..be it any!!!!!!!ANY!!!!!!!!!!!!…

So now since Hiroshima begins it descend towards the soon hell burning down… u need to know wht emotions dat have been featured…now understand ur snakes are pretty active specially some of the specific onez, which have been known to bitten the soul of the devil too…. Control them and make sure u only unleash the same snake not to fight but could also be to assist those snakes, a journey of two through the rough terrain… so an emotional situation handled better if u know wht seems to be de problem and not creating some unknown more ones too… fear with fear, hate with hate, concerned with concerned, sadness with sadness, but if u try to mix them up den all… u shall see a snake farm where no one would wanna step.. so if u confuse sadness with irritation or even sometimes humor with annoyance, u simply have raised a war zone for oneself….

Human and women specially get away with this claiming it to be mood swings…of course the million dollar question arises of how to identify another souls emotional instability…more important is to stabiles oneself…YOURS!!!!



 


                                                            Chaos

Yes I am aware of such factors arising all the time in emotions!! I mean I can see it on ur face already now if u have read so far!! But believe u me, its not dat simple for me either!! For once mastered it can make me look like a fool all over again!! But its worth de try and more importantly knowing it.,..

Actions are a mere simple results of any deviations of emotions or even controlled one. To begin with I would say focus but I would be lying to you if I would confuse focus with an emotion on the whole and knowing actually it not!!!.. so don’t just be urself!!! But wht makes urself you is de key question or should I say de key answer!! Yes as de topic justifies it can and should be confusing, otherwise I would not have written three pages on it just for u to simply read it!! I would have closed the discussion even before it started.. but simple aint any simple anymore..

So Chaos?? Huh? Dats sounds fake… well my boss always said once dat he read in some book written from the writer to the writer’s son.. if u not brave, den fake it and thou shall be!!! I guess now I know where my bosses fake intellectuality came from!! Lol!!!so why lie?? Cause its still u and only u would know…. Emotional confusion can be confused with being played with onez emotions too… Yes!!! ur own!!!  Hiding it can eat u up like an corrosive rock under the sea.. Hurts less to the swimmers above!! But faking it!! Ahhh now u know where we getting at!! Emotional strength is not only attractive but also admired amongst all!!! Ofcourse it’s a diff story all together for loved ones which I would cover sooner or later or never!! But now de most important of all is not confusing faking by controlling!! Dey are visibly miles apart and would always be u ending up not resulting in u…. so why fake it??? Why control it??? Why show it?? Why regret it?? Why???? Just fucking why????

Oh come on who would u be fooling faking it??? Huh??? U would do more harm dan good…. Like the second bad apple in the basket knowing not ur fault but here to start the whole fucking clut of now known to be compared by that first apple always and never move on!!! Why?? To understand!!! And know ur sides if u have any left or more to explore…. Good in a way but dangerously damaging close to a good or a very very bad scary thought!!! Can we bring the focus back on wht we are and wht we are not to closed down to I don’t care at dat point of contact of me not being me no more…. Dat for sure is still me rite??? I still am in flesh and blood taking no more no  for any answers!!!!

Don’t worry once we would have cover this chapter it would begin to take shape…. Like when dey make sculptures out of an hard ice…dey for sure consider the fact that after a slight melt in the ice it would shine none less dan a diamond in its original form….. understand do not consider for consideration is a mere perception if it is one for himself!!!


                                                            Dodging

Yeah!!! Just like de one in red screaming down an European road by the beach…. Dodge Viper!! Sweet aint it!!